MAGIC - For the People that Believe in Magic ONLY
Just when I think a month is a really long time, because that was the last time I heard from Ryan, in 3D and hardly much in 5D either - because I’ve had a LOT OF SHIT going on the past month since I got back from Spokane. In order to communicate with Ryan, I need to be up in the 5th dimension, and that takes a really high vibration on both our parts. Because, here in 3D I don’t have access to message him on social media or even see what is happening where he is, I don’t have his phone number, and I was thinking that we would have reconnected by now.
So, I go back and look at things I’ve posted, or have written in journals over the years, or videos I never posted - just to give myself the affirmations that I need to keep moving forward, because believe it or not, I am having a hard time believing what I have said so far that has come true and I wrote it myself, but I knew it sounded OUT THERE. Then, the next thing I know, things are happening and I’m saying things like “holy fucking shit” out loud, to myself, because I forgot exactly what I wrote or said - and it blows my mind all over again.
The thing is, Ryan is a side quest on my overall Soul’s Purpose journey so I could be a BETTER version of me. I mean, I already thought I had a really amazing life, and all of a sudden I am getting these messages that Ryan and I have not just an every day long-lost lovers story, which is one thing, but now it’s that I am the Goddess of the New Earth, or World or whatever - and Ryan is my Divine Masculine Counterpart. Not just, you know dating. Twin Flames! What the fuck is that? Written in the stars! Excuse me?
Ryan, Me and Katie in 1998 - he was 22 the last time had sex - I have had some experience since and so has he. Oh and we fell in love at first sight, but I had just gotten engaged to Katie’s dad, oh and I found out I was pregnant shortly after. Katie’s Dad and I got married April 1996, she was born July 1996. Ryan, Katie’s Dad and I all worked together in the same department at the same company. We tried to not be anything except friends, and at whatever point we realized we couldn’t - we burned down our existing relationships so we were not cheating on them, but there was some overlap in expressing our desires, mostly love notes because there were no cell phones. Come ON, he was not even 21!
So, I am uploading a video that just blew my mind, and I recorded it. It wasn’t even three months ago, and I’m having a hard time believing that I drove up to Ryan under nearly impossible circumstances a month ago? And I’m having a hard time remembering that we couldn’t be in each other’s presence without him saying “I love you” and “I never stopped loving you” and “I will always love you” like he couldn’t hold it in, so of course I couldn’t hold it in either because I had already forgotten what it was like to let his name fall from my lips so easily, and it was calling it out to him through a chain link fence. WHAT? I hadn’t seen him in person in 25 years. https://www.kristinbaley.com/videos/v/video-recorded-for-ryan-32025-holy-shit He never got to see this and even mentioned wishing he had when we were saying good bye in Spokane 5/14/25.
Nevermind, it’s too much for one entry. There’s enough for a best selling book, blockbuster movie, abundance beyond our wildest dreams. I can’t possibly fit all that into a blog post. So, here’s a wee taste of the magic that I KEEP FORGETTING? Yes, because it is really really really hard to believe. Because, I wrote it, I spoke it into existence - shouldn’t I believe it? Oh right, because I said it was going to happen before it did, but after I said “no fucking way”. Complications. Like, we hadn’t seen each other for 25 years. Like, we were only a couple for a year and a half? Add things like we didn’t want to break up - but we made sacrifices for other people when he moved back to Idaho to be close to his son and out of Portland without me and the kids.
So, watch the video, read some of my other posts - maybe a little affirmation here or there, because it’s been a month - the patriarchy is falling - the world is on fire and I don’t have the guy I chose to be by my side if the world ends. He chose me, too, in case that fact gets by anyone AGAIN. Because I came home ON FIRE and didn’t expect my good friend husband to burn my marriage to a crisp, and I’m still paying the price. Thank you very much for your assistance in this matter. I love you all!
